Psalm 30 and 2 Corinthians 4:9 both speak to the believer who knows in his or heart that the LORD reigns and that He alone is good and worthy to be praised, yet still feels downtrodden, disappointed, lacking hope, vision, and in dire need of encouragement.
There have been days where I am that believer.
At times, I cannot identify the exact thing that is bringing me down, but I feel like I’m enclosed in a shrinking 10 x 10 storage unit, to be put away for good until finally without attention from its owner, it is auctioned for sale. Then, without a bid high enough to pay for the trash removal of it’s contents, the storage is given away to whomever will just put an end to it. This is the state I sometimes find myself passing through. (Notice I did not say residing!)
So, I turn to the Word, cautiously of course, for at first I feel guilty of the sin of not reading the Word as I ought. Second Corinthians 4:9 leads me to Psalm 37:24, which says, “when he falls, he will not be hurled headlong, Because the LORD is the One who holds his hand.”
Oh, now that’s better. It looks like I may not be thrown away from my abandoned storage unit after all.
Many times they have persecuted me from my youth up; Yet they have not prevailed against me.-Psalm 129:2
Yes, this feeling of rejection, being cast down, has clung closer than a brother to me since as early as I can remember. Familiar story–father leaves, step-father abuses, boyfriends leave, friends leave, child’s father leaves, husband abandons, family leaves. This is all very sad, more common now than ever it seems, very true.
For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again, But the wicked stumble in time of calamity.-Proverbs 24:16
Lesson here: Yes, you’re falling and falling hard, but get up, rise again, for you are not wicked, nor do you intend to become wicked; therefore, you cannot stumble, though this be a trying time, a downtrodden time, a time of calamity.
So this is how my God works. His Word quickens the Spirit to stir up some strength from within–strength to press on, to praise him like David as he rehearses from where God brought him. David gives God glory as do I. For the house of David as its dedication (Ps. 30), David sings, “I will extol you, O LORD, for you have lifted me up, and have not let my foes rejoice over me. O LORD my God, I cried out to YOU, And You healed me. O LORD, You brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit. Sing praise to the LORD, you saints of His, And give thanks to the remembrance of His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning.”
Then, David turns to his present situation, “Now in my prosperity I said, “I shall never be moved.” LORD, by Your favor You have made my mountain stand strong; You hid Your face, and I was troubled. I cried out to You, O LORD; And to the LORD I made supplication:”
David’s cry is my cry today, and so I see through God’s Word, David’s example, of how to move beyond this place. David looks back to what he prayed to the LORD, “‘What profit is there in my blood, When I go down to the pit? Will the dust praise You? Will it declare Your truth? Hear, O LORD, and have mercy on me; LORD, be my helper!'”
LORD, Jesus, by my helper! Today, O God, I need you. I feel as though the pit awaits my arrival, for all those who doubt me to rejoice in my falling down. I want to declare your truth! I need your mercy! “LORD, be my helper!”
My Spirit is awakened by truth. The lies that I have accepted in my mind that accuse me of being “less than,” of no value, a failure, start to recede as fresh waves of God’s Word stir up what He planted in me since my youth. I stand with David, then declaring, “You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness, To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever.”
Amen. The Word works!!!